Tuesday, October 09, 2007

ladaridaa..

My hands are itchy right NOW... And as we all know in Philippine tradition its either u will SPEND money or u'll EARN money.. [well i don't know which hand says which..] moving on.. yes! my hands itch because of MONEY and at the same time I WANNA WRITE... i really do.. and i guess i've blogged about it in here ALL the time and now i am so obsessed that Im blogging it here too.. grrr.. >:( ANYWAY... i just want to WRITE... freakin WRITE... [i guess ur thinking u're writing already idiot! what more do you want..] haha! i want to write something that is WORTHY OF READING.. or am i just to dramatic... *sigh* i wanna! i wanna! i wanna! [shut up u BRAT!] =)
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I still have the FEVER.. the La Salle and Pacquiao FEVER.. =) i am so happy because it's another VICTORY for us Pinoys.. happy happy happy! MABUHAY... ANIMO! =D
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now i feel sad.. not because im sad.. [got it?!] i feel bad for somebody.. i love you! i read ur blog.. no matter what they do we will ALWAYS LOVE THEM NO MATTER WHAT... =( u made me realize something and im thankful for that.. =)
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im all mixed up.. i so AM. and i think its all because of the fact that i've been thinking alot.
i've always wondered how it feels like being the ultimate "hot-chick"..
then i'll realize IM HAPPY with my life but not how i LIVE it..
suddenly, something will pop up then make me have another reality-check..
zapping me back to my what i SHOULD really feel..
then i'll be KO'd of consciousness.
and then im GONE... =(

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Posted by mia at 11:17:00 PM

Sunday, September 02, 2007

being impulsive..

I am impulsive.. i must admit the fact that i've made decisions in my life that i thought was "cool" only to end up flat on my face... =) BUT i'll never grow tired of being impulsive.. i guess i just made the wrong recognition when it comes to my guts.. hah! i am trying to be more RESPONSIBLE and more SENSITIVE with how i should react or handle things.. =) im being optimistic [i think that is better =)]
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right now, i miss my college buddies... the ones who are really dear to my heart.. = it sucks knowing that there will come a day when all u'll be is another face in a crowd... all the memories are clouded by the reality that you have separate lives now, and new friends to mingle with... ;( i know its too dramatic but heck! i feel so dumb not being ready for this kind of reality... i guess i was too confident on the whole "friends forever" thing... anyway, that's life... hah!
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i miss my dream guy.. =D haven't seen him in months! GAWD.. where the hell are you.. come back to me.. NOW! hahaha =D

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Posted by mia at 9:49:00 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

check in..

I am now able to say that my Makati experience is FUN.. [coz if I failed I would sing a different tune.. haha] anyway, as I said I am really happy that I was able to pass CCT and may 2 week stay in Makati was all worth it! =) As of today, my wavemates and myself have transferred to Alabang and it's our 4th day in CVG alabang. Another challenge is up ahead and its our evaluations for PST.. *sigh* I hope i'll do good... =
This past few weeks has been very stressful for me... I kept thinking bout my status in CCT, lack of sleep, drain from all the thinking I have to do all day and all the 'commotions' that happened.. Though its actually fun knowing that there is always 'something new' to talk about every morning.. [haha!] =) I've seen quite a few antics that please me and tick me off as well.. A sure proof that people are sometimes funny to watch.. I am no hypocrite that sometimes I feel a little off with some of my wavemates but I don't hold it against them coz that's how they are. I AM IN NO POSITION TO BE A TOTAL DRAMA QUEEN JUST BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE SOMEONE... and I do admit I am irritated by some but NOT ALL.. and YES! i also love some but not ALL.. and YES! I ENJOY THEIR COMPANY.. ALL OF THEM.. =)
Diversity is evident in my wave.. We've come from different walks of life and YET we found similiraties from each other's respectives lives.. it is a small world.. its just how u look at it [world/life] that makes it different.. I will never understand the complexities of life BUT i'll try to LIVE with this complexities.. =D
I LOVE LIFE.. =)

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Posted by mia at 8:39:00 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007

if they only knew

It's funny how we view each other... Some may envy your looks, your social stature, academic prowess, 'emotional stability' etc. yet in reality there is nothing to be envious about... We have our own weakness, our own strengths and we have to find a way to make them compromise so we could have a harmonious life... =(
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What gave me this idea is a actually a friend of mine who texted me awhile ago and she told me that she actually admires me because I get to handle things as if I don't feel sad and as if im some kind of a wonder woman... Well, here is what i can say about that as of NOW, I am vulnerable. I've never been this weak in my 20 year existence... I guess it has dawned to me that I am not actually my 'full person' as of today... I've tried to keep this facade that I am ok and that I can be reached by my friends about they problems anytime... i never thought that it could actually cause something like this... The feeling of extreme weakness... as if i carry the world over my shoulders when it shouldn't be in the first place... ;-( Im not MAD whatsoever I actually feel proud of myself coz I made them feel safe with me... [so don't get me wrong] I guess I just don't want people to think [particularly those who are important to me] that I am always ready to handle their 'blows' though Im always willing to listen to them, but maybe someday there will come a time wherein i'll be one in need... I hope they're still around... ;-)
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PEACE!
[my spacing is not working again... grrrr!]

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Posted by mia at 9:45:00 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

point blank...

Im about to burst into tears... =(... For what reason? Honestly i have no idea! or maybe I know but I just can't accept it... pathethic huh?! HELL YEA... =( As of now, Im a little sad of my day's outcome... i feel bad that im back to my old ways... Im just not in the mood to be happy right now... its as if i feel horrible... =(
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sabi nga ni gigay BITTERGOURD... I guess that is ONE reason why im so 'sad' right now... I feel a little bitter... Bitter about how boring my summer is... Bitter about my dad's actions... Bitter about my LOVELIFE... Bitter about sign guy... B-I-T-T-E-R!!!! i want to feel better NOW... i hate this kind of feeling i just HATE IT... =(
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please.. make sense of things... im losing my patience AGAIN... i hate MYSELF! Im getting to excited of things again... hoping then failing in the end.. this is NOT GOOD... =(

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