Thursday, June 07, 2007

i was once a bully like you...

Last tuesday I had fun time being with people that I love [aside from my family], my highschool friends the 'bru club' as I call them.. haha ANYWAY, im losing my point... haha =) We were left with nothing more to talk about then suddenly we remembered our highschool days... We reminisced all the pathetic things we've done and all the drama we've been through as a group... *sigh* And its true we really were 'mababaw' back then... =)
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When I came home, I had my own 'moment' [as what my bru gigay calls it] wherein I reflected on the things I did back in highschool, THEN I REMEMBERED i was NASTY back then... I was the chubby funny girl who was making my classmates laugh by being mean... YES! I was a MEAN GIRL and I admit I was a bully back then... *sigh* It sucks coz when I look back to highschool, I would have hated me. I mean, I was tackless, arrogant, all-knowing, b*tch! YEP! i am acknowledging the FACT that i was all that... I used the weak ones as the laughing stock so that my classmates wouldn't make fun of me...
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I WAS THE INSECURE ONE... All the experts say about the mean girls, the bullies are TRUE... Those who put other people down are actually the ones who are shy, afraid and VULNERABLE... I was all that in highschool. I wasn't the popular one, the head turner, the 'crush-ng-bayan' type so I used my sense of humor to compensate for my imperfection. SAD but TRUE...
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When i stepped in College, things changed. I became a little MELLOW... I guess its because of the fact that I am starting a new life in a new school and a new environment, nobody new how I was treated in gradeschool and how my elementary classmates humiliated me... IT WAS ALL NEW... It was a transition actually, the fact that I am getting 'older' made me a little more wiser...
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I don't know if the people whom I stepped on would actually read this BUT from my heart of hearts I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT HAVE PUT YOU THROUGH... I take responsibility for it and I AM REALLY SORRY... I know some of you have already flourished in your respective fields and I hope that you'll all continue to do so... Godbless...
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And to the other bullies/mean girls out there... =) Take full responsibility of your actions. Try to see what drives you crazy inside. What 'hole' is it that you want to fill? And always remember what goes around comes around...
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I actually I like what Olivia Gardner said [the young girl who was bullied in school who was shown in the Today Show last June 6] That for every one bad person there are a hundred good persons. =)
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And that makes me once a bully LIKE YOU... =)
PEACE!
[sorry for the asterisks... my spacing is not working for the nth time..]

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

as we go on...

life has never been this challenging for me.. *sigh* These past few months, things have changed drastically... There are have been alot of things to think about, to accomplish and to really dwell upon... Im a kind of person who lives for the moment, and i guess one of its down falls is that there is no room for thinking and analyzing the gravity of the situation. I am open to endless possibilities and i believe that everything happens for a reason, but there are times when i just want to really THINK... =
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Right now, im about to venture into the real world.. I have a job as a CCR for a call center agency in Alabang... Its funny how things happen so fast that you end up dumbfounded with what just transpired.. That actually happened to me, I took the intervied and the exam around 10 am then I was already hired by 2PM... Yes, it's flattering that I was chosen when a lot of people tried to be where I am right now... BUT i feel like I want to be somewhere else YET i don't know where that somewhere is... *sigh* it sucks! but i know that I am about to enter one of the most exciting moments in my life... and im anxious about it.. hahay! =)
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There are things that are bothering me... though i really don't wanna dwell on it coz I think its none of my business but in a way its making its way through my veins.. haha =D anyway, i do hope that things will be alright...
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It's funny how life actually makes a fool out of us... We try to live a life that we think is perfect, yet when we look at other people's lives, ours is actually closer to perfect. [nevermind!]... anyhoo.. Im actually planning to hit the gym soon.. haha im actually excited... hope it will push through... =)
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Let's go back to December 2006... [nevermind again! hahaha]

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