Thursday, June 29, 2006
post its 3
*Does our heart really 'break'? hrmmm.. *do closures really mean anything, are they really important? hrmmm... *does 'i love you' really MEAN anything to anyone... AND *is the RIGHT thing REALLY right?....wheeew! thoughts... haay! i've been thinking bout a lot of things lately and aside from the fact that im CURRENTLY SICK... (and its just like the 3rd week of 1st semester!) gawd! but i still managed to make this post.. hehehe thats a 'bloggermaniac!' hahaha :)
before i really go into the details of what i really want to say, tomorrow is the big DAY for my BJPC family its our GENERAL ASSEMBLY!!! yey! hope it will be a lot of fun... :*
MOVING ON....
do hearts really 'break'... actually i got this idea from my bru jae's blog and sms... hehe and it blew me away... its not really the 'heart' that breaks but more of FAITH... we lose faith in realizing a certain reality... sometimes, we tend to be too involved into something that we give our full attention to it, sometimes things go out of control and there is no sense of making things easy coz everything SEEMS COMPLICATED... why am i saying this? let's just say i want to prove a point, that in love its not just love that is there but the FAITH and HOPE that things will be better... ONCE THE FAITH IS GONE, believing can be really hard and even painful to do... shattered faith can prick has deep as a shattered glass...
NEXT THOUGHT...
CLOSURES... are they really THAT important... WELL FOR ME IT IS!!! everything in this world has an END, PERIOD, TULDOK, CLOSURE... even human lives have an end... even novels have endings, whether 'happily ever after' or a more 'tragic' one... and its PART OF LIFE... but never putting an end into something that is... ---> *continuation at the bottom*
* i didn't know that i published this entry it was supposed to be a draft :-(... i was half awake and half asleep... haha and i didn'r realize that i clicked the 'publish post' button... hahah so the post is well 'PUTOL' !!! haha anyway.. today is the 1st of July 2006.... a day before the mano A mano match...haha anyway, im just to darn sleepy that day that i didn't realize i made a stupid mistake.. hahahahahaha so here goes the continuation of the post.. hehe *
the WORST MISTAKE ANYONE CAN EVER MAKE... (in my opinion)... actually i already ,ade a post about this in my multiply account and my good friend Cyra's blog sparked the thought yet again that is why i made this post... hehe
I LOVE YOU...
3 words... sparks a thought... fuels a troubled mind.. (WTF?!) anyway, many people from different places and different races know the meaning of this sentence/phrase or whatever you call it.. but does it really mean anything.. maybe for some it does BUT there are some who don't... OR maybe they do but there is SOMETHING WRONG within that makes 'i love you' lose its meaning... i really don't know how to continue with the 'thought' of this point im losing it... grrr... let's just move on...
IS RIGHT, RIGHT?
i finished the book VERONIKA DECIDES TO DIE by Paulo Coelho... and i had this dilemma in me whether or not mental patients REALLY ILL... anyway, we grew up in a society that is already established and already has an idea of what is RIGHT AND what is WRONG... and i grew up thinking that the RIGHT THING IS RIGHT, and the reverse action of right is WRONG... but the question is, IS RIGHT really RIGHT... actually, i really don't know the answer... im confused... its all TOO CLOUDY RIGHT NOW... sigh.. :-(
there are just some thoughts in my head that i don't really know the answer... (i guess everyone feels the same) and i know that i need other people to help me realize the answer to my questions... there are reason/s for everything... but no matter how complicated life can be there are still a lot of things to celebrate and appreciate... i hope you'll find it in your heart to be more keen to your feelings and things that bother you coz there it might be a hole somewhere in you that needs to be fed with things that money can't buy... learn to talk to yourself and learn to seek help when your all f*cked up! haha seems pointless already.. hahaha
*bow!*
=== ice breaker of the day ===
What examples would you like others to follow about you?
~ the desire to make people happy and make them see that even in their darkest moments, there is still someone out there who wishes them happiness... (that's me! haha)
Posted by mia at 11:34:00 PM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
whoah!
another day... another pointless entry i guess... heheanyway, the weather is a little better right now compared to yesterday's... I can't believe that it still feels like summer when its already JUNE!... in school, u'll see everybody holding the 'weapon' of the moment, a FAN!! (a.k.a pamaypay) hehe :-) gawd! its just sooo freakin' HOT right now... actually, it 'rained' (did i have it right?!) a while ago and it was raining cats and dogs!!! but its still kinda hot... labo! wheew!!
since, i started with this whole weather thing, i wanna deal about the environment... its really sad knowing that were seeing mother earth deteriorating right infront of us... the ozone layer, our main protection from the sun is already should i say 'broken'... The other critters that we share this world with are part of the list endangered species and SOME are already EXTINCT.... my gawd! where is the sense of STEWARDSHIP????
God created the world in 6 DAYS, carefully thinking of what should comprise His magnificent CREATION... HE CREATED THIS WORLD WE LIVE IN... WE ARE ONLY HEAR TO STAY FOR A WHILE...
WE DON'T OWN THIS PLANET... 'nakikitira lang tayo' And we are pratically not thinking about that... I just hate the fact that mankind turned to be the one who will destroy EVERYTHING...
I HATE people who throw their trash outside their car window, right in the middle of the street... grrrr... I hate seeing dead animals in the middle of the road, with no one even bothering to pick it up and give it a 'descent burial'... I hate the fact that we don't wanna lose the world that we live in and yet WE ARE NOT THINKING OF WAYS TO PRESERVE IT....
there is more in this world than shopping, traveling, studying, watching movies, etc... And i admit, I am also a part of the many others who are NOT doing anything... AND I FEEL BAD ABOUT IT... I want to save this WORLD... because there are a lot more lives who will inhabit this world in the future and its not right to MESS IT ALL UP FOR THEM...
mistakes have been done in the past in order to bring convenience in man's existence, advancement in technology to ensure comfort... BUT MOTHER NATURE PAID THE PRICE FOR MAN'S QUEST FOR PLEASURE...
change doesn't have to be GRAND to prove to everybody that you've done something...
We could start in small things that can help preserve 'our home'... and bit by bit we could see the and make the DIFFERENCE...
Its just a thought of mine.. hope you'll come to realize that YOU CAN BE A CATALYST OF CHANGE...
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=== ice breaker of the day ===
Would you dare to sleep in a haunted house overnight?
~ NO WAY... haha im scared of spooky places, phenomena, etc... BUT if i will be with someone (i like.. hehe) on that sleepover WHY NOT... LABO! hahaha
Posted by mia at 3:02:00 PM
Friday, June 23, 2006
miss bodestyne's back :-)
im back... hahaha :-) after of almost a week of blog hiatus...School already started and its dreadful!! i think its because of all the deadlines; handouts; responsibilities; pressures; that I have to endure EVERYDAY... *sigh* if only things can be a little less COMPLICATED.... gawd! sometimes, people just make things hard when there are other ways in attacking a certain thing...
since the whole 'people making things complicated' started, i'll elaborate... ok! so there is this something that someone does that PISSES ME OFF!!! F.Y.I: its not the person that i hate but the 'THING' this person DOES... (ok?! hehe) anyway, i just can't understand why can't we just DEAL WITH THE WHOLE THING and T-A-L-K about it... grrrr.. i mean, how will you consider yourself a communication student when you can't even express/COMMUNICATE properly with the people around you.... Is it because of pride? or is you're just generalizing everybody when you don't even know THEM/US PERSONALLY... 'napupuno na ko' and i don't want things to go out of hand but as long as this 'WALL' exists i don't see any progress and its just sad... SOOOOO FREAKIN' SAAAAD...
I just hate the fact that people are soooo darn hard to understand... *sigh* if only there is a way of making things a little easy... maybe people will not be that hard to fathom...
MOVING ON....
Im already done reading ANGELS & DEMONS... it was a little more dramatic that DA VINCI CODE... and one thing i noticed is that Robert Langdon is always disturbed in his sleep... anyway, nevermind what i just said... hahhaa its pointless anyway!!! haha
Another thing!!
Thesis is a little cloudy right now but i know will be able to finish it this SEMESTER!! (kmusta nman un?!)... its a challenge, and we're just on our 2nd week and HAGGARD days are HERE!!! TOOOOOOOXXXXXIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!!!! grrrr...
One last... hahaha
I saw my 'serendipity boy' / 'mr van' yesterday!!! hahahah :-) and it was a little funny experience... hahaha things change, people change, and he did change a bit (as far as the bag is concerned) haha and he looks GOOOOOOOOOOD!!! hahaha we're a little 'cool' and it was a certified KILIG moment... *winks*
=== ice breaker of the day ===
What expectations do you have for yourself that were borne from childhood?
~ that i will be able to live a happy and peaceful life... A true seravnt and believer of God... Someone who will bring happiness to both my parents and friends... hrmmm.. And that i will be rich someday and make my OWN money and be thankful to GOd everyday... :-)
Posted by mia at 10:45:00 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
first week HIGH!!
first week of classes SUCK! and i mean SUCK... things are not happening 'as planned'... haaay... there are so many things to do and SO LITTLE TIME... as always.. :O anyway, our schedule SUCKS!!! grrrr... i really don't know whats happening around school today, is it me or 'are they drunk?!'... hehe whatever! (walang sense and sinasabi mo mia)moving on... i missed the 'blop-blop' session last thursday... sori friends!! love you all.. mwaaah... next time! 4 letters!! B- O- R- A !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha can't wait for that 'main event'... wohooo!! :-)
i just hate this past week... although its fun going to school and FINALLY seeing your friends there is something that sucks in between those 'happy moments'... hrmm... whatever!! haha
since school already started, its also the start of... tadaaaah...COM RES 2!! my new thesismates euri and rutha!!! hahaa goodluck to the 3 of us... hahahha :-)
hope the following weeks will be 'less irritating'... hehehe :*
=== ice breaker of the day ===
How did you make money when you were a kid?
~ to be honest, money was never an issue for me when i was growing up... and i think someday it can be my downfall... ahrmmm... i used to get my money from my mom and dad so i just used my 'little girl charms' to have my share of 'blessings'... also, whenever we have family reunions, my aunts and uncles shower me with some of their moolah... haha :-)
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 8:59:00 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
happy bday ate L.A.!!
my 'manang' :-) as usual getting into my stuff, trying to find a pen... It was a sunday, June 14 1998 around 6 am when my mom was bugging me to get out of bed cause my sister is in labor... Being the lazy bum that iam didn't even bother looking at her (mom) when she told me the 'news'... after a couple of hours that's when everything finally set in my 'system' my niece is about to ARRIVE... as i've said... my sister went in labor for 18 hrs... sheesh! kamusta nman un?! it was a nightmare!...
But it was a 'memorable' day... haha my mom was the 'katipunera' of the day! She was mad to the doctor (Dra. Auxillos) and she has a 'weapon'... her trusty bag.. haha and then there was the new tita (moi!) was getting in and out of my sister's hospital room with a chocolate drink in hand (everytime!!) i think i was really nervous i used the choco drink to 'calm' me down... haha (excuses!) and there was my dad who was pretty calm and who wasn't speaking to anyone AT ALL... also there was my sister's mother-in-law who was so glued to the tube! who was she watching Bro. Mike and his followers... everybody else (including my bro-in-law) were outside... we were all nervous... its been hours and still there was no sister and baby around...
It was around 8:40 pm when the doctor said its a girl!!! haha after a few mins. i saw our angel in an incubator all wrapped up in a pink blanket... she was a chinita, has a fair complexion, and she was really SMALL... then the nurse gave her a tap at the back and we were shocked when she.... SMILED!!! it was her 1st smile... haha and it took my breath away...
although she makes me scream sometimes, and makes me all pissed off(hehe), i still love her! she's sweet and she knows how to comply with the house rules and 'my rules'... haha very smart and talented!! PRETTY OF COURSE!! --> i think she got from her pretty tita! haha :-)
happy birthday ate L.A!! love you... see you on sunday!!! :-)
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=== ice breaker of the day ===
How did you invest your life the past year?
~ hrmm.. to be honest, i don't think i made something productive in my life in the past year... Although i did managed to finish the tasked assigned to me and other stuff i don't think i did my best... But then again, i think by reading and investing in my mind made the past year a little worthwhile... and right now im thinking if i answered the question correctly... hahahaha
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 8:43:00 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
post its part two :*
why is it that sometimes you find yourself alone, YET ur surrounded by a lot of people... actually the statement. 'you're not alone yet you are lonely' came from my bru jae.. she stated it back in our senior year.. we were talking about the Little Prince (my fave book of all time; the boa constrictor, grown ups (God Bless them!), the rose, the snake, etc..) ANYWAY, I can't help but take the 'statement' seriously!! I can totally RELATE to it.. haha it may seem to be too dramatic or what but heck! that's what im feeling right NOW.. :anyway, its really sad knowing that ur trying to make other people happy AND YET you can’t find the right joke or statement to MAKE URSELF HAPPY… haaay… I guess its my eternal question for myself… I thought surrounding myself with lovable, happy people will make things easy for me… BUT HELL NO!! I am not saying I am not contented with their company coz I DO… I REALLY DO ENJOY EVERYTHING THAT WE DO… pero something WITHIN me still needs to come out… im not a lesbian (istup-ped!) hehe :-) wheeew! That sucks… :-(
There are times I just wanna go out and have some fun… just let it all out and let all new ‘positive’ energy come through my system… although there are tough times, I still manage to make things a little ‘fun’… ewan ko ba… I just don’t wanna be that ‘down’ anymore BUT its still there… THE SADNESS WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF ME… I guess… hrrrmmmm…
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I saw ayeen’s blog today… hehe flattered daw ang drama ng lola mo… haha it feels good knowing that people appreciate what u are writing… it just proves that blogging its not just something that you do for fun or to be ‘in’… its also a way of expressing what you have in mind and letting other people see your perspective and make them THINK… nakakatuwang isipin na many of my blockmates and other close pals are really good in writing… It makes me think (as always!) writing is not just writing perce but it is your soul’s way of expressing what is it inside that needs to be unleashed… I believe that through blogging/writing I get to release the tension from within… and everytime I read my post I realize that my life story is right infront of me and I CAN ALREADY PUBLISH A BOOK…. Hahahaha (jowk lng!) THANKS AYEEN!! I ALSO LOOOOOVE YOUR POSTS… (nakakaaliw.. lalo na ung mga surveys hehe) You really deserve to be a Literary editor… hehe naisip ko lng, mnsan pa-seminar tau bout blogging… is there any sense with what im saying.. hahaha..
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I also saw fitch's blog.. hehe 'level up' na yan!! :-) u take care psycho!! hahaha
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Ngayon ang ika-108 anibersaryo ng kalayaan ng Pilipinas... Sa unang pagkakataon ay isusulat ko ang parteng ito ng buong Tagalog... Nakakatuwang isipin na nabuhay ako sa panahon na wala ng mga taong nagpapahirap sa ating mga kababayan (mga kastila, hapon at amerikano)... Ngunit hindi parin tayo tunay na malaya, marahil sa aspeto ng mga manlulupig ay malaya tayo ngunit mayroon paring mga parte ng ating lipunan na hindi tayo TUNAY na malaya...Subalit nagpapasalamat parin ako dahil dito ako sa Pilipinas ipinanganak, at lumaki... BAKIT? Dahil dito ko nakikita ang TUNAY NA BUHAY... Kahirapan, karangyaan, kalokohan, korupsyon, pang-aapi, TAGUMPAY at katapangan ay nakita ko na sa ating bansa at naniniwala rin ako na mas marami pa ang mga maidadagdag mo sa aking mga nabanggit... Sa bawat Pilipino na nakakasalubong ko sa araw-araw mas nararamdaman ko ang ating mga bayani, bakit kamo? Dahil nahaharap natin ang buhay ng walang takot na baka may dumakip sa atin o pumigil sa atin sa pag-abot sa ating mga pangarap...
Nakakalungkot lamang dahil unti-unti ng nawawala ang kagandahan ni LUZVIMINDA.. Marami sa ating mga kababayan ang naghihirap at hindi ito lingid sa ati; patuloy parin ang awayan patungkol sa pulitika; hindi sapat ang edukasyon na natatanggap na karamihan sa ating mga kababayan pati narin ang mga eskwelahan ay mababang kalidad narin; mga guro, manggawa, atbp na hindi akma ang sweldong natatanggap; ang patuloy na banta ng terrorismo sa ating mga lansangan; krimen at karahasan na pataas ng pataas ang bilang; at marami pang iba...
Kailan kaya mararating ng ating bansa ang tunay na kalayaan? At para saan pa ang tiniis ng ating mga bayani kung tayo rin namang mga 'ipinaglaban' nila ang sisira sa kanilang pinaghirapan... Gaganda pa kaya ulit si luzviminda?
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===ice breaker of the day===
What are your goals for living?
~ My goals for living are:
a. to finish school in time and march that way to my diploma...
b. be a succesful writer and be a part of the PCIJ team
c. to be able to go to New York City and have my own penthouse there.. haha
d. to meet my inspirations in life: Oprah Winfrey and Maya Angelou
e. buy an island and actually live in there... waahahaha
f. own a ballpen factory!! (serious!)
g. PUBLISH MY OWN BOOK... (please! wanna do this someday!!!)
h. own a pink ferrari.. [ang kuyut! :-)]
i. find a cure for AIDS...
j. build a foundation that supports Philippine public education
k. to be a teacher
l. marry edward norton!! hahaha or manu ginobili... hahahahaha :-)
m. TO INSPIRE PEOPLE TO LIVE THEIR LIVES TO THE FULLEST AMIDST ALL OBSTACLES THAT THEY HAVE TO FACE IN LIFE...
Posted by mia at 3:51:00 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
post its
this post will be just like post its... u write on 'em and u stick it on your fridge, in ur notes, etc.... but this one u stick in ur head.. hehe (understanding n lng perhaps..) :-)***************
school starts next week... im kinda excited but not that much... IM NOT FEELING WELL... haaay.. anyway, i'll be back in school on tuesday!! hehe i'll be seeing my friends again.. miss them.. :-)
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Im not like myself today... thinking bout 'crazy' thoughts... 'beliefs' that keeps me in motion are the things that i hold on today... haaaay... (meditating) 'home stretch', 'cheerers', patience, 'almost there but not quite', 'almost there', almost there, almost there... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... (what was that about?!) i dunno... hahahaha stupid!! *bez, alam mo yan...*
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forgive my stupidity, but i can't help it... im sooooo bored... and then im soooooo confused... and then im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo PISSED OFF!!! grrrr.. i really don't know where this hate is coming from.. is it me, or there really is something wrong with this 'current picture' (of my life that is..)... hrrrmmmm... THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG... i can feel it... but i can't point out which one... :c
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SIGNS...FAITH... BELIEF... LOVE.... haaay... these are the key things that i hang on to lately... i really don't know what is going on in me... its like, all this thoughts are running through my head and all i can do is the 'wait and see tactic' (thanks! ms tumangday for the term :*) grrr.. i wanna DO SOMETHING to make things work but circumstances state otherwise... (not getting what im saying.. don't bother.. just READ) ...they tell me its not yet time, its not ur moment, its not right... i believe it too... ITS JUST THAT... im tired... that's it.. IM TIRED... IM SOOOOO FREAKIN' TIRED.... :c
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Euri asked me: 'hindi ka na nalulungkot?' honestly, im sad... SOOOO SAAAAAD... coz there is a whole within me that needs to be filled... (its not just a lovelife that im 'craving' for) I crave for a LOT of things.. (e.g. self worth, self esteem, etc...) ITS AN ISSUE that i have to deal with... *sob* sometimes, iam shock when i get to laugh really hard and still manage to smile and mingle with other people even if deep inside im hurting... i guess its a part of me THAT NEVER GIVES UP... i believe that i never lost touch of my TRUE SELF.. the one who wants to make people happy, and make them feel appreciated... un nga lng i tend to forget that I too need some encouragement, and i too need to be happy...
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===ice breaker of the day===
What fantasy would you like to live out? Why?
~ hrmmm... Living in the city that never sleeps and have a penthouse there... experiencing new year's eve there and see the giant crystal ball.. haha I just wanna work and live in NY.. i just love the city... :-)
Posted by mia at 2:27:00 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
ice breaker 2
i was going through my 'memory box' (made from 2 rusty lopez's shoe boxes)... spotted my ice breaker 2 box.. i guess almost everyone knows it.. (most especially JOU 31)... back in our sophomore years, we were tasked by our professor Ms. Jibrin to pick a question from the box (ice breaker) then we answer the question SINCERELY... (it helped us cope with public speaking dilemmas)... :-) so i wanna do it here.. haha wla kz akong magwa eh.. haha :-)1. What dou you want to see happen in your life at sixty?
~ By the time i reach 60, i want to have my own beach house whether here or in the Bahamas will be fine for me.. (haha) and then i want to see my family with me, from my husband to my children to my granchildren... hrmmm.. and i want to have my own private beach and my own private hanger with my own private plane and my own yatch and my husband and i holding hands while watching the sunset... :-*
2. Once, just to attract attention, I...
~ I made fun of almost everything i see just to flash my 'incredible smile' hahahaha (ang kapal!! hahaha) But seriously, that's what i always do most especially my crush is a few metres away, i smile and laugh alot.. :-)
3. What is the best gift that you can give yourself? why?
~ I want to give myself a butterfly orchard... i loev butterflies and one time when we were in Baguio I saw this butterfly orchard in camp john hay and it was the most beautiful place i've ever seen.. butterflies everywhere and flowers all around... It was actually an open air garden before with a mermaid statue at the middle of the pond... ANYWAY, now its a butterfly orchard.. what's the point, ahrrrmm.. i wanna have one someday! haha
4. What was the most outrageous lie you ever told?
~ There was this time back in highschool, i think it was my junior year... anyway, i came home late coz my friends and i were having a 'bonding session' in a friend's house... FRANTIC that my mom will kill me coz i came home late, i made up this story while i was riding the tricycle... when i got home i told my mom THAT WE SAW A GHOST IN MY FRIEND's VILLAGE... my mom was shocked! and she was just looking at me... AND I WAS CRYING... (stupid!) haha.. the irritating part of the story is that MY MOM WASN't MAD AT ALL... (stupid!!)
5. One of the best things I ever got for free was...
~ my computer? haha coz without brando i will not be able to blog as long and as often as i want.. haha I LOVE BRANDO THE COMPUTER!!! :-)
6. When you think of your lonely times, what scares you about the experience?
~ The fact that i was feeling lonely and that i was AGAIN crying myself to sleep... It feels really bad knowing that YOU ARE LONELY YET YOU'RE NOT ALONE... it sucks! and that is the scary part whenever i have my 'lonely moment attack'...
7. Cite a situation wherein you felt life had been unfair to you...
~ Everytime i turn off the lights and i see the darkness envelop me... :c coz whenever im alone at night thats when i realize that there are 'holes' in my well being that needs to be filled then i ask... WHY ME??
8. How is security demonstarted in your lifestyle?
~ hrmmm... I grew up thinking that having the capacity to live/survive each day means security... I live in a 'secured' life always asking my parents to buy me what i want and not really working hard to have it... I think i was never the independent type, being the youngest and 'baby' of the family made things even worse... hrmm.. my point of view bout security mostly revolves in money (as bad as it may sound but true)... [did i answered the ? right?!]
9. One thing that I can't stand to be nagged about is...
~ that im coming home late at night because I HAVE A BOYFRIEND... my gawd! its a constant 'issue' im battling with my mom... haaaay! kangawit na kya mag-explain... nakaw!
10. Do you consider yourself a good lover? How?
~ yun un eh! haha I really don't know... haven't been in a relationship.. EVER... yes! NBSB in the haus... (yuck! sounds weird!)... But I think im the type who risks my happiness over the happiness of a loveone... *winks*
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 9:28:00 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
F.R.I.E.N.D.S.... :-)
i got this survey from one of my friend's (ayeen) blog... :-) and as what she's written she also got it from one of her friend's blog... i found it amusing so i also made my own.. hehehehe so anyway, its about friends.. so here it is..(Think of ten of your friends. Write 2 sentences about each one, but don't say which friend it's about. Write one GOOD sentence about them; something you like about them. And write one BAD sentence about them; something you don't like about them.)
Friend #1.1. well.. we've been through a lot and im really happy that we are far more closer now than before.. u make me laugh and scream all at the same time! LOL.. :-)
2. i love you girl but the sensitivity is still there..
Friend #2.1. since childhood we've been together and i consider you as one of the few closest people in my life and i love the way you keep everyone at ease..
2. hope u'll finally wake up and see that there are more fishes in the SEA.. gawddammit!
Friend #31. your sweetness always reminds me that there really are few people who can see the beauty of everything... ur smile says it all! *wink*
2. ur hard to fathom.. there are times i wished i knew u much better and decipher your codes.. haha
Friend #41. ur one crazy lady! ur oneliners are a sure hit... and i always look forward on what ur about to do next..
2. hrmm.. there are just times when i don't know if ur still doing the right thing..
Friend #51. YOU MAKE ME LAUGH... SO HARD I THINK I CAN DIE THE NEXT DAY.. haha u listen and that makes me feel appreciated...
2. you don't have time to sleep, and i hate the fact that ur not putting ur self first.. hmp!
Friend #61. u appreciate things and u always believe in people... and i love the fact that u see things in a positive light.. (although not all the time)...
2. be more sensitive in what you do and always think of what ur doing coz there are times that i know u mean well but its not what the people see or feel...
Friend #71. u always remind me that there are possibilities of finding true love and being with my dream guy... u are always there in the gloomiest of days and keep me busy by thinking bout how I REALLY FEEL..
2. u left ur past w/o any closure and i know that ur hurting yet ur not doing anything about it..
Friend #81. u are the 1st person i met in college.. and u make me laugh and smile all the time.. u keep me grounded and i know that u love me.. LOL!
2. sometimes u don't know ur limitations.. minsa foul na! bka ma-foul out ka nyan..
Friend #9.1. ur soooo funny.. and u keep ur frustrations aside just to make us (ur friends) happy... u've always proven to me that our friendship means a lot to you..
2. there are more to this life than material things.. i know u know that but sometimes u tend to forget.. :P
Friend #10.1. u keep me grounded... u always show me that we/i mean a lot to you and all that we have is true and pure friendship... haha mishoo!
2. hrmm.. ur not visiting me anymore.. waaah..
FRIENDS... i have a lot more people who i want to include in this survey but gosh! 10 lng ang pwede... (kmusta nman un?!).. some of them i'll be seeing soon.. some i don't know if they still exist... and some i'll be missing BUT i know i'll be seeing by the end of the semester... haaay...
im lucky.. i have them.. and they're lucky COZ THEY HAVE ME.. haha.. honestly, they make my life a little lighter.. and i appreciate that..
thanks guys! love y'all... *wink,hug,kiss*
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 10:30:00 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
is it just my imagination??
is it wrong to think about the possibilities... :-'(its a question that keeps on ringing on my head...i believe it is the one thing that bugs me every now and then... and iam really pissed off when i can't find the solutions to my questions... :c i must say im too logical when it comes to matters of the heart... i always want to justify the things that are happening around me.. oftentimes, this 'justifying attitude' of mine leads to pessimism.. and when at that stage of my judgment i succumb to loneliness... (that's when everything in the world sucks!) *sigh*
sometimes, its good looking back at 'moments' that made u feel like time stopped and all that mattered was you and the person you're sharing the moment with... i felt that! yes I did! TWICE.. with 2 different people... One, at DLSU-D library's stairs.. Two, in church...
Looking back.. im 'thinking'...
are my eyes deceiving me?
does the heart really feel what our eyes are seeing?
or is it just the mind who keeps on telling us that something is up.. BUT there isn't anything at all... :'c OR.. they work together to give you the picture of what they see, feel and think... OR they are working together to deceive you and make a total fool out of ourself..
doubts.. pessimism.. are my new bestfriends.. and that sucks! but i can't totally move on UNLESS the answer to my question is FINALLY REVEALED... when will that happen i don't know.. and whether it will even happen is also part of my 'concern/s'...
well.. life is short ( I KNOW THAT!) but i can't help BUT THINK ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES.. haha (kulet no..) i feel stupid just thinking bout it.. BUT! (another but.. sheesh!) I CAN'T HELP IT.. waaah and its making me sick coz, i CAN'T MOVE ON...
thinking bout him and all the 'moments' we had... my gawd! first year pa ko nun!!! waaah wanna know why im going ga-ga over this guy... here we go:
1st yr --> the 1st time i saw this guy.. sa ERS pa un.. with his blockmates and his trusty adidas backpack.. it wasn't love at first sight.. but it struck something.. but i ignored it.. hehehe (wholesome un!)
2nd yr --> pag-aper days... his group was part of the 'maglalatik group' who happens to be the same group that my blockmates (boys) are in.. (ayaw ko ng term na group harhar).. practices were fun coz i get to see him.. i thought sparks flew but im not sure... saw him looking, as if observing.. and the mere fact that he's smiling at me, everything just went BLANK... (and no kidding, even i was shocked!) thought it was just a joke but it happened again.. and again.. and again...
--> that same year, i discovered that its a small world after all.. my good friend cheeboi happened to be his classmate.. and gia who was my 'reco-mate' happens to be his close friend... BUT i still didn't knew his name! darn!
3rd yr --> the library moment happened! it was a day when everything just went into place FOR A MOMENT.. and at that time TIME JUST STOPPED... (overly dramatic huh?!) but never felt that way before.. i was on my way down, and he was on his way up.. we met half way and we saw each other up close.. i looked away, hoping he'll do the same, but when i looked back at him, he's eyes met mine, and i knew he didn't looked away... just staring and smiled.. i smiled back and i remember myself frozen.. haha
--> saw him again.. it was a fine saturday... he passed by infront of the JFH kubos and when i looked.. he also looked... i was shocked and he was shocked.. i'll never forget his reaction when he saw me.. he gave a second look, a third look and even a fourth look... haaay..
---> summer came, and i can't ask for more.. just frozen inside the van.. we were close.. occupying each other's personal spaces even if the van is alreay 'maluwag'....
4th yr --> i don't know... i know i'll meet him personally someday.. i can feel it.. i know i will finally discover his name.. on the day OUR YEARBOOK is finally on display.. haha (WTF?!)
thank you.. for reading my craziness.. tell me, am i dreaming...please, help me! i can't bear it any longer... what does all of these mean.. i believe he knows me (by face).. and i believe that at some point in our 'moments' we felt something different.. are we really having the sparks?
OR IS IT JUST PART OF MY IMAGINATION...
Posted by mia at 8:02:00 PM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Kemo Sabe
my dear friend Jae posted a blog in her friendster account about our adventures.. :-) ahahaha.. and i noticed that her's was far more detailed than mine.. and it made me appreciate our escapade even more.. thanks jae! love you BRU.. *winks****************
Ok.. to be honest, i don't know where this post will go but i have this craving to blog so i'll just get this over with and let's see what will be the end product of this goobledygook.. shall we?.. WE SHALL.. (WTF?!) Since IM 'THE KEMO SABE'...
THE ALL KNOWING ONE.. hahahaha :-)
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Since, school is about to start next week, june 13 to be exact... i will not talk about my college friends, coz i do believe that my posts in the following weeks will be about them (blockmates) and school.. so let's skip them.. hehe :-)
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I wanna talk about.. hrmmm.. HIGHSCHOOL! haha i was exploring my multiply account when i came across a new post by Par2x and its entitled HIGHSCHOOL DAYS.. my gawd! i must admit I LOOK AWFUL.. haha and im not having any insecurity attacks, im just TELLING THE TRUTH! haha
The hair! OMG.. the hair.. you can stick anything to it and it WON'T FALL.. gawd! the hair.. thank GoD hair treatment is already available..haha :-)
The body... haha im far more 'slimmer' today than in HS.. so imagine that! haha i remembered my JS prom and i tried the gown i used.. the skirt that i wore that night can now be my whole dress.. can it be an accomplishment?! why not.. haha
The FRIENDS.. haaay! i just miss them.. the pictures really painted a thousand (or even more) words.. the craziness, the weirdness, the antics, EVERYTHING.. the endless laughter on plain NONSENSE...
what do i remember most bout HAISKOOL, HIGHSCHOOL, HS.. TOP 20.. hrmmm...
1. jae,che,cari,gayle,mich,akang,par,karen,iya,gin,jackie... (patrio and integ girls)
2. erwin,maui,david,ipen,gabo,bc,jake,julian,pj..
3. DLA las piñas
4. HS lobby
5. joyce's house
6. classrooms
7. bc's house
8. gabo's 'majong house'
9. MA'AM PEARLIE
10. the famous line 'hi-skool layn UP' -(kuya andro)
11. CAT (tlaga lng ha?!)
12. Mcdo las piñas
13. Tubby's
14. kwek-kwek, fishball, squidballs
15. 'pagkayo nga tatawa lumabas kau ng DLA!!' (ma'am pearlie 2003) --> this one's for me and mich for laughing real hard..
16. OLE! OLE! OLE! OLE! (integ theme)
17. DLA HYMN --> been singing it since PREP!
18. makunat na chicken sa canteen at quesadillas na 10 pesos
19. cartolinas na mai happy birthday to ____ (kung sinong mai bay) tpos mglalagay ng bday msgs ung mga classmates ko.. (i have one actually! hehe)
20. BONDING MOMENTS, LAUGH TRIPS.. at xempre! PALARO..
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Now its time to end this 'going down memory lane trip'... wanna share with some of the world's craziest verities..
~ Charlie Chaplin once won third prize in a Charlie Chaplin look-alike contest
~ By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you cannot sink into quicksand.
~ 85% of men who die of heartattacks during intercourse, are found to have been cheating on their wives.
~ Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.
AND ONE THAT CAUGHT MY ATTENTION...
3% of all mammals are monogamous.. [men are mammals right?! NO WONDER THEY ARE NATURALLY BORN POLYGAMOUS.. hahaha *winks*]
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"A mind is a terrible thing to waste.." -United Negro College Fund ---> I THINK I JUST DID THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.. ( for this entry that is.. haha)
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 6:55:00 PM
Friday, June 02, 2006
we're such retards...
bru.. hahaha :-) my gawd!! endless laughter.. hahaha from one liners to circumcision... what more can u ask for.. its a conservation like no other..thank God for THIS FRIDAY... hahaha :-)
tried and tested in our 6 years of friendship... 'kapag hindi planado siguradong tuloy' why...
coz.. we (me, che,cari,jae and gayle) were supposed to stay at jae's house just to watch chaos.. then gayle will bring the popcorn and we'll just hang out... and have lot's of fun...
BUT THEN...
Gayle texted she's in SM Southmall, buying some stuff for her brothers (school supplies) and she'll drop by around 3 or 4... Soooo.. jae, che and me decided to go somewhere... then the question...
Jae: "nakapunta na ba kaung SM Mall of Asia?" struck something from within the subconcious and then.. *ding* a thought came and that changed the course of the day...
harhar.. Carrie who had other plans came along (coz their plan was busted! haha) so we picked her up.. then Gayle who we thought was in Southmall, went to Jae's house with her popcorn and there was no one there, except jae's mom and sibs.. (oh sh*t! wrong move for us)... so when gayle called we were SHOCKED! so we went to gayle's haus and told her to come with us na lng sa mall.. after a few mins of calling her 'rents asking for permission, and us taking free bread from their bakery.. haha
WE REACHED SM MALL OF ASIA.. haha (korny ko nman!hmp! haha) so while walking along the the 'busy' mall, we spotted a few weird antics of people! my gawd!! people.. people.. calm down, the mall's not leaving you know... it closes but its not like its gonna leave its spot.. gosh!
ANYWAY.. we decided to try watch a movie in IMAX.. but we don't like the movies so we just watch BENCHWARMERS.. i don't if its just me or the movie is really funny.. i mean, every scene something hilarious is about to happen... haha I mean Rob Schneider (did i have it right?! :> ) , David Spade and this 'other guy' (gawd! i forgot his name! haha) anyway it was totally HILARIOUS!! hahaha :)
After the movie, we tried walking around and try to make sense of the chaos that is happening around us.. haha so we just had our own chaos within our 'group space' hahaha.. and then the day's highlight came.. haha
WE HAD DINNER!! (at tlagng na-excite aq sa dinner) haha we ate in Pizza Hut Bistro.. (we had a craving for pizza coz we saw a lot of Pizza Hut scenes at the movie.. :O) anyway, after stuffing ourselves with 2 supreme family size with cheesy volcano pizzas and lot's of laughter... we're still not yet done! (kala mo ah..) haha
then suddenly...
we heard the 'waiters' singing happy birthday to one of the diners... SO.. *ding* another idea was hatched! hahaha we told our 'server' kuya Jomel (hahahaha) that Steph (che's cousin by the way) is having her birthday.. (thank gawd! Steph's such a good sport..haha) So we were thinking 'alis na tau dito.. haha nakakahiya!' BUT.. che who is really excited about this 'song number' doesn't wanna leave just yet.. so after a few mins of 'retard moments'... the kuyas were starting to 'make senyas' to each other.. and there it was!! the 1 scoop of ice cream and a happy face made from choco syrup was place in our table...
AND THEY STARTED SINGING!!! hahaha :-D it was fun! everyone were such good sports!! and the song... boy! it was really funny.. hahaha ang kulet nina kuya.. haha thanks kuya: jomel, jowee, joel, jhet, vashdane (tama ba?!), etc.. haha they were really nice... :)
it was a funny 'date' if i may say so.. hahaha :0 we missed each other so much kya it was like every joke caused an eternity of laughter... :)
we came home around 10:00 pm.. another 'cool' thing about it is that our parents were actually asking us when are we going out.. or if we have plans of going out.. hahaha and they weren't mad at all.. now that's new! :')
another semester is about to come.. and i guess we will be seeing each other on october pa.. haaaay.. im surely gonna miss them... IM TIRED! and our dog is crying right now.. (what's the connection? nothing really haha sh*t! haha)
nyt!!
*toodles*
By the way.. if u wanna see how the brus look like.. hehehe just click on the link below and if your not yet in multiply.. try it! its kinda addicting you know.. hahaha http://crazypeacock.multiply.com/photos/album/9
Posted by mia at 10:16:00 PM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
yey! :)
i was overly dramatic last night.. haha eeeew!!! haha :P and i was in this whole "i miss my friends" mode... and its so DRAMATIC...BUT...
i was shocked when i received 7 msgs.. (early in the morning!) thinking 'ang aga nmn mgising ng mga tao, summer vacation nman ah' anyway, (enuf of the 'thinking head' of mine) i was really shocked when... i received a confirmation that...
I WILL BE SEEING MY FRIENDS ON FRIDAY... wohooo.. 'yey!' [its kinda mababaw, but hey! i miss them..] harharhar
anyway, the date and time is set.. ahahaha oh boy! im really excited... im far more excited for tomorrow's bonding moments than sunday's driving 'recap' with my dad.. haha my gawd!! naalala ko pa... (now im nervous!!) :O
gosh! bonding day with friends.. hahaha God! i miss the old days.. haha
sunday?! well.. i have to think about that day more.. i have to remember that i have to step on the clutch everytime i change gears... and there is a difference between a half break and a full break.. and that the signal is on the left and the wiper is on the right.. (or is it the other way around) waaah :s.. and that i have to press the 'button thingy' on the hand break to put it down but not when i pull it up... whatelse, hrmmm... (sorry for the sudden flow of driving thoughts)... ANOTHER THOUGHT...
iam in control of the car... NOT THE CAR IN CONTROL OF ME...
am i ready?! can we just stick on what's gonna happen on friday...
BTW! if u will happen to pass by Daang Hari on sunday and u'll see a chubby girl floating on one of the 'rivers' their.. please pull over..
baka ako na un.. haha
*toodles*
