Sunday, September 02, 2007

being impulsive..

I am impulsive.. i must admit the fact that i've made decisions in my life that i thought was "cool" only to end up flat on my face... =) BUT i'll never grow tired of being impulsive.. i guess i just made the wrong recognition when it comes to my guts.. hah! i am trying to be more RESPONSIBLE and more SENSITIVE with how i should react or handle things.. =) im being optimistic [i think that is better =)]
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right now, i miss my college buddies... the ones who are really dear to my heart.. = it sucks knowing that there will come a day when all u'll be is another face in a crowd... all the memories are clouded by the reality that you have separate lives now, and new friends to mingle with... ;( i know its too dramatic but heck! i feel so dumb not being ready for this kind of reality... i guess i was too confident on the whole "friends forever" thing... anyway, that's life... hah!
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i miss my dream guy.. =D haven't seen him in months! GAWD.. where the hell are you.. come back to me.. NOW! hahaha =D

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Monday, August 20, 2007

adios.

after all this time, FINALLY iam able to update my blog.. wheeew! things have definitely changed and im very much willing to move forward... =) i came into a point in my life wherein I HAVE TO GIVE UP SOMETHING THAT I THOUGHT I CAN BE GOOD AT... [too vague?! GOOD] i never really thought that i could really give up something that i've always dreamt of having and pursuing... i'll definitely MISS the feeling... i know that i came across a point in my life wherein i really made a MY OWN DECISION.. I'll surely miss everything.. = maybe someday i'll be able to stay...
GOODBYE.. =(

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

wishFULL thinking...

we're currently concentrating on our PST.. [sigh] hopefully we all get to pass this challenge.. i have my sights on WHAT I WANT... weeee! hopefully i'll be able to reach that goal in time.. =) I've never had this kind of drive in my life EVER, i guess sometimes if we really set our minds into something, we can sure hope a lot from our ownselves... =) Though iam quite scared coz I don't know if i will be able to really DO it.. BUT! i KNOW.... SOMEDAY... i'll make my dream come TRUE... haha
IAM COMING.. hahahahaha =)

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Friday, July 06, 2007

check in..

I am now able to say that my Makati experience is FUN.. [coz if I failed I would sing a different tune.. haha] anyway, as I said I am really happy that I was able to pass CCT and may 2 week stay in Makati was all worth it! =) As of today, my wavemates and myself have transferred to Alabang and it's our 4th day in CVG alabang. Another challenge is up ahead and its our evaluations for PST.. *sigh* I hope i'll do good... =
This past few weeks has been very stressful for me... I kept thinking bout my status in CCT, lack of sleep, drain from all the thinking I have to do all day and all the 'commotions' that happened.. Though its actually fun knowing that there is always 'something new' to talk about every morning.. [haha!] =) I've seen quite a few antics that please me and tick me off as well.. A sure proof that people are sometimes funny to watch.. I am no hypocrite that sometimes I feel a little off with some of my wavemates but I don't hold it against them coz that's how they are. I AM IN NO POSITION TO BE A TOTAL DRAMA QUEEN JUST BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE SOMEONE... and I do admit I am irritated by some but NOT ALL.. and YES! i also love some but not ALL.. and YES! I ENJOY THEIR COMPANY.. ALL OF THEM.. =)
Diversity is evident in my wave.. We've come from different walks of life and YET we found similiraties from each other's respectives lives.. it is a small world.. its just how u look at it [world/life] that makes it different.. I will never understand the complexities of life BUT i'll try to LIVE with this complexities.. =D
I LOVE LIFE.. =)

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

as we go on...

life has never been this challenging for me.. *sigh* These past few months, things have changed drastically... There are have been alot of things to think about, to accomplish and to really dwell upon... Im a kind of person who lives for the moment, and i guess one of its down falls is that there is no room for thinking and analyzing the gravity of the situation. I am open to endless possibilities and i believe that everything happens for a reason, but there are times when i just want to really THINK... =
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Right now, im about to venture into the real world.. I have a job as a CCR for a call center agency in Alabang... Its funny how things happen so fast that you end up dumbfounded with what just transpired.. That actually happened to me, I took the intervied and the exam around 10 am then I was already hired by 2PM... Yes, it's flattering that I was chosen when a lot of people tried to be where I am right now... BUT i feel like I want to be somewhere else YET i don't know where that somewhere is... *sigh* it sucks! but i know that I am about to enter one of the most exciting moments in my life... and im anxious about it.. hahay! =)
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There are things that are bothering me... though i really don't wanna dwell on it coz I think its none of my business but in a way its making its way through my veins.. haha =D anyway, i do hope that things will be alright...
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It's funny how life actually makes a fool out of us... We try to live a life that we think is perfect, yet when we look at other people's lives, ours is actually closer to perfect. [nevermind!]... anyhoo.. Im actually planning to hit the gym soon.. haha im actually excited... hope it will push through... =)
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Let's go back to December 2006... [nevermind again! hahaha]

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

How am I?

As of the time being i am BORED... Thank goodness books were created... television reigned supreme and Oprah was always on or I will go NUTS... [do you hear me?! NUTS...] anyway, I am not looking for a job unlike my former blockmates who have applied on call centers, TV networks, Newspapers, etc... Im here lounging around as if money will come my way... *sigh* I never thought that living in the real world is this tough... Im used in spending my folks' money, sleep during the weekends, lounge around, go to school and act smart [haha], and just be a normal teenager [the way society depicts it]... Oh wait! I am no longer a teenager [oh shoot!] im already a young adult and I should start picking my OWN trash and my OWN a** around... [the hell!] *sigh*
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I want to be useful again.. and i must admit I MISS SCHOOL!!! [grrr!] I miss beating the deadline, doing my projects the day before [haha!], hanging out with my friends, productions, and all those academic stuff... I hate it when I feel so useless... I want to think... I want to write... I want to recite [Lord! I miss sir Gagalac's recitations, Sir Umali's Prelim, Midterm and Final exams, Thesis making] I feel like my creative juices are starting to lose its 'acidity'.... [f*ckaroo!]
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Now it boils down to my current emotional state... [as i call it] Im actually in a balanced state of mind [my own term again!]... i really don't know how I get through the day... i shock myself everytime... =) I guess it just sums up how vulnerable I really am right now... [stinking hormones!] YES! I blame those hormones... sometimes Im high and then i get really low... [am i Bipolar?!] Oh shocks! NOOOO!!! = ... For sure Im just doing my best to take the 'best' out of my boring summer vacation... [GAWD! Its HOT here in the Philippines!!!] Blame it on the carelessness of us humans to Mother nature... [grrr!]
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Last Sunday was Earth Day and was also my bez's birthday... soooo...
Bez EURE!! Happy Birthday... =) mua! Lorve you...

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

FINALLY...

im back AGAIN.. after a long time of not blogging here.. =) i was too busy managing my
friendster and multiply accounts that i wasn't able to blog here.. *sigh* BUT now im back and there is no stopping my excitement in blogging in my blogspot again... wohooo! =)
For the past 2 months I've done a lot things already [aside from being a full time BUM]... i actually GRADUATED.. =) I had acquired my Degree in Broadcast Journalism last March 22, 2007 at the Philippine International Convention Center (PICC) in Manila... It was one of those moments that really made a MARK in my life.. i guess the thought of FINISHING school and setting foot into the real world contributed to my enthusiam.. =) I am indeed happy that my parents saw me in one of my triumphant moments in my 20 years of existence... =)
Graduation marked the end and beginning of my life... The END of my academic responsibilities, my school night outs, drinking sessions with my college friends and the whole thought of going to school and STUDY... YET! it also marked the BEGINNING of a new chapter in my life... A chapter that leads to a whole LOT of RESPONSIBILITY... a chapter that can dictate how i would manage my life and my FUTURE... I know there is no more room for any excuses coz there no more subjects to blame, requirements to finish, extra-curricular activities to attend to and a thesis to think about... It actually scares me coz i don't know how in the world will I be able to handle my life... i guess only time can tell... *sigh*
For the next months, i'll be in search of a JOB... a JOB that will represent me [i hope]... Im excited and scared at the same time... I don't know if I will be even able to represent what the employers want... [i don't want to disappoint my mentors..] *sigh* I have to be tough... I HAVE TO... =
As for the time being, im a certified BUM... and it feels like i'll be in this situation for quite some time... haha =) BUT! i promise to look for a job soon... heehee =)

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