Sunday, December 31, 2006

FLICKER

if there is a word that will describe my WHOLE YEAR it will be FLICKER...
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Thinking about the whole 2006 i came into a conclusion that my life is like the xmas lights we see gracing the houses of our neighbors or maybe on your own house... you see it shine unsteadily, some bulbs may even be dead, some bulbs light with the beat of a xmas song, some are in unison with the others or some shine above the rest... SAME AS MY LIFE... =)
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as i ALWAYS say my life isn't perfect and I even said to a friend that i feel like my life is a routine and everything is just a joke.. well! im a dumb-ass so i see myself as a caricature to this so-called life of mine.. (whatever!) moving on... =) i have my moments and i guess it's not so bad that i ended this year with questions in my head...
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the bulbs that shine unsteadily...
i guess those people who are close to me know that im at that certain 'phase' in my life where im too overwhelmed with all that comes into my head... thoughts that seem to be too redundant.. thoughts that are sometimes pointless... haha i've made posts that are too pointless (it consumes so much space in my site's memory)... =) anyway, so-called bulbs that shine unsteadily are all the uncertainties that came into my life.. the questions that up until now is still a part of me.. from my plans in the future, to my next post (haha) and even to my 'lovelife'... =) these bulbs are what comprises my existence as of the moment, unsteady... and iam excited that as my 'bulbs flicker' it makes my ass kickin' practice harder... hahaha
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the 'dead' bulbs...
i've been totally smitten by some personas in my life and im not regretting every single moment i did out of well pure infatuation.. and yea! i've finally moved on.. =) HALLELUJAH! i can still remember that sunny thursday when i came to realize that i wanna know his name.. (which i did!) and it was the dumbest thing i did so far but i don't regret it at all.. haha coz i made a choice and at that moment i chose to go straight to his face ask a stupid question then ask his name.. haha what a moment it was!! hahaha =D hay! to you 'my friend' thanks for the 'kilig moments'.... peace! and to the other guy that caught my attention last year (2005) have a pleasant year ahead.. and i wish you happiness! *winks* ..... feeling of hate and anger have subsided... (gone even) and yes! after years of suffering i came to realize that IT WAS NEVER MY PROBLEM it was THEIRS... and i hope my self worth will come back to me.. (imishoo) =)
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bulbs that dance with beat of a christmas song...
my heart is palpitating with all the LOVE i've been receiving from my family... my friends.. and ALL the people im blessed to have... =) they are the BEAT that makes my heart dance... my life merry and puts a smile on my face... they are the people behind my success and all the blessings that i have in this life they are a part of it and i share my existence with them... THANK YOU U MAKE ME DANCE... hahaha that is why i make my messages whether xmas, new year, bday, valentines, friendship day, etc personal coz u all mean something to me... aaaw! MUSHY! haha
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bulbs that are in unison with others....
moments that are working together to make a 'cute' picture... haha =) this year has a been a year of chaos... from school projects to personal affairs it was CHAOS... BUT all these chaos that showered my life were those that made it interesting, challenging even... things may not have been good during the latter parts of the year BUT there were also some people who came and made my year AWESOME! =)
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bulbs that shine above the rest...
i can compare these 'bulbs' to certain people who made my year PLEASANT... also to the moments that were quite ASTONISHING... hay! as what they always say when God closes a door He opens a window... and boi! He did open WINDOWS!! =) im thinking of someone that reallly made this year memorable.. haha and i doubt if he will ever have the opportunity to read this but YEA! you made my year.. and of course all the people that make me smile every freakin' day...
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and as this year draws to a close i wanna take this opportunity to tell you that THANKS! for reading.. thanks for understanding.. i know there are people out there who are still reading this pointless blog.. haha and i APPRECIATE THAT... if there are some that i've hurt IM SORRY... to those who hurt me LET'S MOVE ON TOGETHER>.. to those who remained true I LOVE Y'ALL... and to those who inspire me to continue this passion HATS OFF TO YOU!... =)
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HAVE A ROCKIN' NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! till next year... =)
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gawd! 2 more hours and bye bye 2006 and HELLO 2007!!! =)

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

yea girl!

last night was one of those nights where it felt right to kick things up a notch.. =) it was another BRU moment and it was FUN... it felt right and it felt G-O-O-D!! haha although we weren't complete coz Jae needs to be somewhere else (miss you girl!) it was still a certified BRUHITA outing... =D hay! nothing beats highschool barkadas tlaga! (i guess you will agree with me people) BUT! i also LORVE my college 'kadas okie.. hahaha (defensive!) =) anyhoo! it was a crazy day... and the reasons are:

BUT! there was a down side, we didn't enjoy much the mall coz it felt like the whole population of Manila and other nearby areas are ALL inside... can't walk straight, have to move side ways or actually STOP so that other people can pass through... haha FUNNY! kasi inis kami eh andun din naman kami eh di nakakadagdag kami sa population ng mall.. haha

looking forward to another lakad with you guys... sulitin na dahil pag mai class na patay na nman tayo... wahaha =) NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION NATIN AH!! tska ung Krispy Kreme date ntin.. don't forget...

love y'all.. :-) hanggang sa susunod na paglabas ng BRU CLUB... haha

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Sunday, December 24, 2006


HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

HOPE everyone will have an awesome Christmas and a ROCKIN' new year!!!

TAKE CARE all yah ass-kickin' people.. haha =)

God Bless! =D

PEACE!
BY THE WAY!
i wanna greet my good friend Dhang ADVANCE HAPPY BDAY!! hahaha =)
also belated happy birthday to: Airis, Connie, Summerbaby, Ael and to my other friends who are December celebrants!! hahaha LIBRE KO AH!! =)

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

litrato ng taon =)

sa sobrang atat mgkapicture ayarn! kamusta nman ang pic nmin.. hahaha =D hay! today was Homecoming's last episode... hay! mamimiss ko ang mga pipol.. BUT even if Homecoming's over, im not yet done with m practicum, i bet i will be able to experience IMC's new office! witWAW!! hahahaha =) NYEAS!

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Monday, December 18, 2006

done, but with errors on page

today was supposed to be OJT day but due to some 'unknown' reason/s we weren't able to come... hay! anyway, did something awesome... hahaha nerve wracking!!! hay! it was totally uncalled for but it gave me the chills... whatever! =) hay!!! SO HAPPY... but i shld not be to merry coz its just a simple answer... haha no more no less... hay!

i can smell the season!! and i can see it through the unwavering flicker of my neighbor's lights... =) the sound of children singing carols remind me of how sad i was back in the days coz i wanna join them but my dad is TOTALLY against it.. (INC po ako!) =) anyway, its right here and i am totally excited although we are not celebrating it... (LABO!)
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thesis defense w/c was actually re scheduled... hehehe =) atleast wala pa kaming verdict... im NARBUS!!! waaah
TBUDS!!
 witWOOOT!! hahaha bez eure, me and ruthalicious..aaw!

another say cheese moment!
TBUDS with lurlur =)

WAITING IN VAIN.. (again!)

here iam yet again... waiting for that 'awesome guy' who took my breath away... hay! if only he knew that he meant that much.. hahaha if only! =D well, u keep me afloat... hahaha =) even if there is nothing out there for us STILL iam HAPPY that you did come to make me feel.... H-A-P-P-Y!!! they say that we come into each other's lives to make a 'difference' and YOU DID BOI! hahahahaha =) keep on rockin' f*ck*r...

*** what's with the title? haha nothing really i just saw it at the bottom of my blogger window! haha can't think of a proper title so i chose this one... whatever!

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Saturday, December 16, 2006

chasing time

yesterday was OJT day... we went to UP Diliman... =) College of Fine Arts.. siyet!! ang galing nila gumwa ng mga lanterns... astig!!!! =D amazing...
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had the opportunity to see Kringeration!! hay.. i so miss her!!! kaya sobrang happy ako na nagkita kami... so it was like a mini reunion for autogals! kaso wla nman si iya at rutha.. hay! di bale there is such a thing called next time.. har! wait!! i'll STOP the code switching...
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anyway, there are a LOT of things that are bothering me as of the moment and i feel like time is not at my side thus im CHASING TIME... hay! whoah!! SEXY LOVE is being played right now!!! hahaha kinda reminds me of someone!! aaw!! i've learned about a lot things yesterday and it was kinda SHOCKING!!! although im used to hearing stuff like 'that' but i never thought it was really POSSIBLE... haha =) anyway, i have NO PLANS of saying it here so might as well skip the subject.. hahahaha (whatta?!)
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i miss you... =) i just hope that i will able to see you soon...
im chasing time for you...
and i will do my VERY BEST just to be near you again...
if only you knew...

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

curses

its really funny how people tend to mesmerize me on a regular basis... ;) they keep me from maintaning my sanity... if it wasn't for my continuous effort to be around people i could have lost my battle a long time ago... someone actually asked me how old i was, haha kz when asked how was my love life sabi ko 20 years na kong bigo! haha kaya tuloy nagwonder ung kausap ko if i am 'that old' to say such a thing... haha im just 20 years old living a 40 yr old life!! hahaha just kidding! im just well... FRUSTRATED... yes! I AM.. and when people ask me 'how are you?' i always flash the pathetic smile and say 'OK LANG AKO' when in reality IM NOT.. haha weird no! well, atleast NOW im being HONEST... hahahahay!! stupid ass! hehe =) anyway, as i've said im FRUSTRATED...
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HAY! can i just lose the attitude and just be CARE FREE!!! grrr! i hate the fact Im trying my best to be me and yet its me that is pulling me back... f*ck!! hay.. i can do this! i know i can... maybe not now but in the days to come.. i can do this... i can do this... i can do this... i can do this...
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tomorrow.. CORRECTION later is practicum day.. i shld be sleeping right now but as usual im doing one of my pathetic entries and yes im cursing again..haha anyway, im waiting for dhang's msg... hehe as if you care! hahahaha (stupid!) should i really be laughing..
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curse you HORMONES!!!

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

salamat sa pag-alala

nakakatuwang isipin na maraming taong nagmamahal sau.. sa bawat mensahe na natatanggap mo araw-araw alam mo na may mga tao na nakaka-alala sayo... =) PERO gusto mo na may ISANG tao na magparamdam sayo PERO hindi ka nya naalala... hindi siya nagpaparamdam... saklap noh.. sa dinami-dami ng nagparamdam/nakakaalala sayo yung pinaka-HIHINTAY mo ang WALA... =( nakakaasar PERO wala kang magagawa dahil HINDI KA NIYA NAIISIP... HINDI KA SUMASAGI SA ISIP NIYA... putragis! badtrip noh! haha NGUNIT isa-isip mo na HINDI YUN ANG KATAPUSAN NG MUNDO.. hndi pare! dahil sa ISA na hindi ngparamdam 25 ang PUMALIT... nakaalala, nagparamdam, nagpa-alala sayo na may IBANG TAO NA NAKAISIP SAYO NGAYON...
SALAMAT! may mga tao parin na nagpaparamdam... SALAMAT! meron paring patunay na may pag-asa parin sa buhay... SALAMAT! andiyan parin sila, IKAW, AKO... SALAMAT! nagkakaroon parin ng saysay ang LAHAT... SALAMAT! mga PARECOI!!! =)

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Friday, December 08, 2006

ITS JUST ME... =)

been thinking of you..
BUT a part of me is saying that enough is enough...
a part of me is crying
a part of me is breaking
AND YET
a part of me is loving...
a part of me is believing...
AND a part of me is STILL HOPING...
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* i miss you... haha so soon yet so sure... if there is one thing in this world that can kill me i guess its LOVE (hahaha) mushy?? cheesy even BUT that's just me! i never grew tired of feeling 'this feeling'... IT SUCKS! hell yeah! "i know there is someone out there for me" (parang kanta lang ah!) i know that in the end i'll be a sore loser.. and actually im getting used to it... hay! kasi nman eh.. i always fall for someone who is not even willing to be there when i fall.. (that sucks!) but that is what life is bringing me.. so i guess i must have the courage to go and be merry even if it hurts.. hay! im being senseless....
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i just wanna say that im back where i started.. haha =) if only i was brave enough to ask... hahah IF ONLY...
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EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED... wohooo!! =)

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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

'chillAX'

MTV Homecoming in Don Bosco Academy...

Don Bosco Academy, Mabalacat, Pampanga


yun un eh.. hahaha =) Kanina lng nasa Pampanga kami... hehe kmusta nman.. ngaun e2 na ko sa bahay ngpapaka-henyo sa pg upload ng mga pics.. actually Homecoming kanina ng bassist ng banda Giniling Festival si LEC... (sila ang kumanta ng HARI NG METAL at ang aking new fave song na SILING GINILING) =) anyway, it was FUN 1st out of TOWN moment kasama ang mga IMC boys pati mga PM.. haha =)
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nxt time tatadtarin ko ng pics.. hehe
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grabe ang init sa pampanga ah!! goshness!! =) pero infairness ang GWAPO nung kambal na nkilala nmin kaso bata pa sila.. GRADE SCHOOL PA LANG!!! (pero panalo na!!) tpos the other one nman 4th yr highschool na.. finalist xa sa starstruck!!! sayang lng wla kaming pic with him kasi pauwi na xa.. hahaha his name sounds like Aljur ata.. hahaha bsta nsa starstruck xa!!! hahah GWAPO!!! =D (teka lng! may napansin ako.. prang hndi mgkatugma ung sinulat ko.. mainit tpos gwapo??? LABO!)
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nga pla.. the term 'CHILLAX' came from the ever pretty Michie.. heehee mishoo na girl friend!! kmusta nman!! hahahahaha =)
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PEACE!

Posted by mia at 11:51:00 PM

Sunday, December 03, 2006

best i ever had...

hay... practicum life is very tiring but the contentment it gives you is simply REMARKABLE... the people you work with... the events u attend... the tasks that they give you... all the walks, runs, skips, jumps, laughs are simply irreplaceable... =) hahaha dramatic? HELL YEA!!!
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IM TIRED... and i've only just BEGUN.. (now that sucks..) =(
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hay... it sucks knowing that whatever you do things will never be the way you want it to.. u can't manipulate things that are present in your life... and all you can do is sit back and let the f*ck*ng tears fall... grrr! it sucks u know.. it f*ck*ng sucks... oh well.. that's life and no matter what we do with or without our PERSONAL LEGEND we still have to keep track of ourselves... aaaw!
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it's school day tomorrow and IM EXCITED TO SEE MY BLOCKMATES!! fuckarooo!!! haven't seen you guys for 6 fuckaroo days!!! =D
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have to go now.. still have an assignment in ethics, an exam in broad man and a radio commercial for ADMAN.. grrr! =)
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PEACE!

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