Thursday, June 07, 2007
i was once a bully like you...
Last tuesday I had fun time being with people that I love [aside from my family], my highschool friends the 'bru club' as I call them.. haha ANYWAY, im losing my point... haha =) We were left with nothing more to talk about then suddenly we remembered our highschool days... We reminisced all the pathetic things we've done and all the drama we've been through as a group... *sigh* And its true we really were 'mababaw' back then... =)
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When I came home, I had my own 'moment' [as what my bru gigay calls it] wherein I reflected on the things I did back in highschool, THEN I REMEMBERED i was NASTY back then... I was the chubby funny girl who was making my classmates laugh by being mean... YES! I was a MEAN GIRL and I admit I was a bully back then... *sigh* It sucks coz when I look back to highschool, I would have hated me. I mean, I was tackless, arrogant, all-knowing, b*tch! YEP! i am acknowledging the FACT that i was all that... I used the weak ones as the laughing stock so that my classmates wouldn't make fun of me...
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I WAS THE INSECURE ONE... All the experts say about the mean girls, the bullies are TRUE... Those who put other people down are actually the ones who are shy, afraid and VULNERABLE... I was all that in highschool. I wasn't the popular one, the head turner, the 'crush-ng-bayan' type so I used my sense of humor to compensate for my imperfection. SAD but TRUE...
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When i stepped in College, things changed. I became a little MELLOW... I guess its because of the fact that I am starting a new life in a new school and a new environment, nobody new how I was treated in gradeschool and how my elementary classmates humiliated me... IT WAS ALL NEW... It was a transition actually, the fact that I am getting 'older' made me a little more wiser...
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I don't know if the people whom I stepped on would actually read this BUT from my heart of hearts I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT HAVE PUT YOU THROUGH... I take responsibility for it and I AM REALLY SORRY... I know some of you have already flourished in your respective fields and I hope that you'll all continue to do so... Godbless...
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And to the other bullies/mean girls out there... =) Take full responsibility of your actions. Try to see what drives you crazy inside. What 'hole' is it that you want to fill? And always remember what goes around comes around...
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I actually I like what Olivia Gardner said [the young girl who was bullied in school who was shown in the Today Show last June 6] That for every one bad person there are a hundred good persons. =)
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And that makes me once a bully LIKE YOU... =)
PEACE!
[sorry for the asterisks... my spacing is not working for the nth time..]
Labels: BRU, milestones, realizations
Posted by mia at 7:25:00 PM
