Tuesday, April 24, 2007
How am I?
As of the time being i am BORED... Thank goodness books were created... television reigned supreme and Oprah was always on or I will go NUTS... [do you hear me?! NUTS...] anyway, I am not looking for a job unlike my former blockmates who have applied on call centers, TV networks, Newspapers, etc... Im here lounging around as if money will come my way... *sigh* I never thought that living in the real world is this tough... Im used in spending my folks' money, sleep during the weekends, lounge around, go to school and act smart [haha], and just be a normal teenager [the way society depicts it]... Oh wait! I am no longer a teenager [oh shoot!] im already a young adult and I should start picking my OWN trash and my OWN a** around... [the hell!] *sigh*
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I want to be useful again.. and i must admit I MISS SCHOOL!!! [grrr!] I miss beating the deadline, doing my projects the day before [haha!], hanging out with my friends, productions, and all those academic stuff... I hate it when I feel so useless... I want to think... I want to write... I want to recite [Lord! I miss sir Gagalac's recitations, Sir Umali's Prelim, Midterm and Final exams, Thesis making] I feel like my creative juices are starting to lose its 'acidity'.... [f*ckaroo!]
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Now it boils down to my current emotional state... [as i call it] Im actually in a balanced state of mind [my own term again!]... i really don't know how I get through the day... i shock myself everytime... =) I guess it just sums up how vulnerable I really am right now... [stinking hormones!] YES! I blame those hormones... sometimes Im high and then i get really low... [am i Bipolar?!] Oh shocks! NOOOO!!! = ... For sure Im just doing my best to take the 'best' out of my boring summer vacation... [GAWD! Its HOT here in the Philippines!!!] Blame it on the carelessness of us humans to Mother nature... [grrr!]
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Last Sunday was Earth Day and was also my bez's birthday... soooo...
Bez EURE!! Happy Birthday... =) mua! Lorve you...
Labels: current status =)
Posted by mia at 10:08:00 PM