Friday, January 12, 2007
they're HERE!
been totally obsessed with GREY'S ANATOMY... =) hay! love sucks... and the line "... so pick me choose me love me..." keeps on running in this plutoed brain of mine... and i was fortunate enough to watch an episode a while ago.. it was about drawing lines (boundaries) and there was this phrase that really sparked a thought.. "there are alot of things we don't know about each other..." (which is TRUE!!) =')....
... I had this conversation with a dear friend and i was talking to her bout some stuff when she suddenly txted something about her special someone and the idea of this certain someone dating somebody else.. so i was shocked that she confided a little about her predicament.. as we continued talking about it, she admitted that she never gave 100% of her true RAW emotions.. i mean, she kept a lot of stuff from us coz "i don't want to share the pain"... i felt bad.. coz i feel like 'im not good enough' to be her friend then i realized that I too kept quite a few skeletons in my crazy closet... then one tree hill gave me this new 'slogan' (haha!) "Truth is a lie... Nobody knows anyone.." =') sad but TRUE.. we've all kept stuff from everyone... and if there is ONLY ONE being that knows us its the ONE UP THERE... =) i know too cliche-ish.. but i guess "late bloomer lng ako pagdating sa mga realizations.. haha"
**** hay ****
i never knew that i will even talk about this but anyway, i feel HORRIBLE... (yes! HORRIBLE) its been bugging me for quite some time now.. i know i shouldn't be overly dramatic about it BUT i can't help it... i MISS this certain person really bad... then as i was going through some stuff, i bumped into something that SHOCKED ME... ='( hay! it sucks.. pakshet!
**** hmmm ****
i should have just kept things to myself... i should have just turned around and walked away... i learned that there is a certain kind of kindess that should be left ALONE... i learned that in this life not all things that make me FEEL GOOD is worthy of my time... i discovered that im STUPID enough to make the same mistake AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN coz i never knew in the first place the lesson that is needed to be learned (until now..)... i know that IAM my WORST ENEMY... i discovered that crying isn't that much helpful nowadays... i learned that HE is someone who will always be my inspiration... I knew in my heart that no matter what i do his voice will ALWAYS resound in my head.. AND lastly, i knew that even if i hide the pain it will always.. always come back to GET ME...
**** i suck.. ****
**** still hoping... BUT i know his happy... ****
**** i'll let him be... ****
**** IAM STILL SMILING **** =)
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Posted by mia at 12:04:00 AM
