Thursday, December 14, 2006

curses

its really funny how people tend to mesmerize me on a regular basis... ;) they keep me from maintaning my sanity... if it wasn't for my continuous effort to be around people i could have lost my battle a long time ago... someone actually asked me how old i was, haha kz when asked how was my love life sabi ko 20 years na kong bigo! haha kaya tuloy nagwonder ung kausap ko if i am 'that old' to say such a thing... haha im just 20 years old living a 40 yr old life!! hahaha just kidding! im just well... FRUSTRATED... yes! I AM.. and when people ask me 'how are you?' i always flash the pathetic smile and say 'OK LANG AKO' when in reality IM NOT.. haha weird no! well, atleast NOW im being HONEST... hahahahay!! stupid ass! hehe =) anyway, as i've said im FRUSTRATED...
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HAY! can i just lose the attitude and just be CARE FREE!!! grrr! i hate the fact Im trying my best to be me and yet its me that is pulling me back... f*ck!! hay.. i can do this! i know i can... maybe not now but in the days to come.. i can do this... i can do this... i can do this... i can do this...
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tomorrow.. CORRECTION later is practicum day.. i shld be sleeping right now but as usual im doing one of my pathetic entries and yes im cursing again..haha anyway, im waiting for dhang's msg... hehe as if you care! hahahaha (stupid!) should i really be laughing..
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curse you HORMONES!!!

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