Sunday, December 31, 2006
FLICKER
if there is a word that will describe my WHOLE YEAR it will be FLICKER...
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Thinking about the whole 2006 i came into a conclusion that my life is like the xmas lights we see gracing the houses of our neighbors or maybe on your own house... you see it shine unsteadily, some bulbs may even be dead, some bulbs light with the beat of a xmas song, some are in unison with the others or some shine above the rest... SAME AS MY LIFE... =)
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as i ALWAYS say my life isn't perfect and I even said to a friend that i feel like my life is a routine and everything is just a joke.. well! im a dumb-ass so i see myself as a caricature to this so-called life of mine.. (whatever!) moving on... =) i have my moments and i guess it's not so bad that i ended this year with questions in my head...
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the bulbs that shine unsteadily...
i guess those people who are close to me know that im at that certain 'phase' in my life where im too overwhelmed with all that comes into my head... thoughts that seem to be too redundant.. thoughts that are sometimes pointless... haha i've made posts that are too pointless (it consumes so much space in my site's memory)... =) anyway, so-called bulbs that shine unsteadily are all the uncertainties that came into my life.. the questions that up until now is still a part of me.. from my plans in the future, to my next post (haha) and even to my 'lovelife'... =) these bulbs are what comprises my existence as of the moment, unsteady... and iam excited that as my 'bulbs flicker' it makes my ass kickin' practice harder... hahaha
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the 'dead' bulbs...
i've been totally smitten by some personas in my life and im not regretting every single moment i did out of well pure infatuation.. and yea! i've finally moved on.. =) HALLELUJAH! i can still remember that sunny thursday when i came to realize that i wanna know his name.. (which i did!) and it was the dumbest thing i did so far but i don't regret it at all.. haha coz i made a choice and at that moment i chose to go straight to his face ask a stupid question then ask his name.. haha what a moment it was!! hahaha =D hay! to you 'my friend' thanks for the 'kilig moments'.... peace! and to the other guy that caught my attention last year (2005) have a pleasant year ahead.. and i wish you happiness! *winks* ..... feeling of hate and anger have subsided... (gone even) and yes! after years of suffering i came to realize that IT WAS NEVER MY PROBLEM it was THEIRS... and i hope my self worth will come back to me.. (imishoo) =)
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bulbs that dance with beat of a christmas song...
my heart is palpitating with all the LOVE i've been receiving from my family... my friends.. and ALL the people im blessed to have... =) they are the BEAT that makes my heart dance... my life merry and puts a smile on my face... they are the people behind my success and all the blessings that i have in this life they are a part of it and i share my existence with them... THANK YOU U MAKE ME DANCE... hahaha that is why i make my messages whether xmas, new year, bday, valentines, friendship day, etc personal coz u all mean something to me... aaaw! MUSHY! haha
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bulbs that are in unison with others....
moments that are working together to make a 'cute' picture... haha =) this year has a been a year of chaos... from school projects to personal affairs it was CHAOS... BUT all these chaos that showered my life were those that made it interesting, challenging even... things may not have been good during the latter parts of the year BUT there were also some people who came and made my year AWESOME! =)
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bulbs that shine above the rest...
i can compare these 'bulbs' to certain people who made my year PLEASANT... also to the moments that were quite ASTONISHING... hay! as what they always say when God closes a door He opens a window... and boi! He did open WINDOWS!! =) im thinking of someone that reallly made this year memorable.. haha and i doubt if he will ever have the opportunity to read this but YEA! you made my year.. and of course all the people that make me smile every freakin' day...
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and as this year draws to a close i wanna take this opportunity to tell you that THANKS! for reading.. thanks for understanding.. i know there are people out there who are still reading this pointless blog.. haha and i APPRECIATE THAT... if there are some that i've hurt IM SORRY... to those who hurt me LET'S MOVE ON TOGETHER>.. to those who remained true I LOVE Y'ALL... and to those who inspire me to continue this passion HATS OFF TO YOU!... =)
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HAVE A ROCKIN' NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! till next year... =)
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gawd! 2 more hours and bye bye 2006 and HELLO 2007!!! =)
Labels: year-end post
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