friends... they make u laugh.. they make u cry.. they can make or break ur day... they accepted u for who u are... and they seem to know when ur having the worst day of ur life... BUT friends can also hurt you as much as a failed relationship can.. (or even much worst than that)...
IM HURT...
i thought everything will be just FINE.. i was kinda (ok fine!) IM REALLY excited that i will be able to see my friends.. that i will be finally able to see them and catch up with all the latest buzz in their lives.. but what i/we (jvin and i) got...
hay.. maybe the notice was too late... maybe the plan was a big bust! maybe they really have other IMPORTANT things to do... maybe... maybe... maybe...
THEY'RE NOT 'THAT' INTERESTED AT ALL... :(
i feel akward... i feel kinda low... and im clueless... i mean, i have this feeling that i missed something that happened... or i UNCONSCIOUSLY made the biggest mistake in a friendship...
I DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA WHAT JUST HAPPENED HERE... *crickets chirping*
i know.. nothing is the same.. and besides the only constant thing in this world is change.. and all those yadah yadah.. grrr... sh*t! i can feel that something is DEFINETLY WRONG IN THIS PICTURE.. i know! and i can smell it.. BUT (that freakin' but again!) i can't point it out exactly.. coz i have no clue.. its just this 'gut-feeling'... grrr... crap!
what will happen.. well for one, the plan is off! (as of 10:15 pm) and i guess it will stay that way until friday or even saturday or even FOREVER... (now! that sucks!!) :(
:'( its not the same.. and that's the SAD part.. everythings not the same... we've changed!! WE ALL DID.. and i lost track of it that now, im left well... ALONE... its sad.. very sad... :(
for the record.. i don't hate anyone.. (gayle,che,carrie,jvin) NO ONE!! i love u all too much to hate you.. okie?! just tell me.. WHAT'S WRONG? (if u will be able to read this[post]..) am i just too paranoid about what's happening... or my 'gut-feeling' was right all along...
*sigh* *sob*
*toodles* :'(
Posted by mia at 10:23:00 PM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
miss thinker..
well.. after wasting some time watching cable tv and listening to music.. i've finally awaken!!! hallelujah.. :) and i began to realize (yet again) a lot of things.. oh crap! i hate it when there are so many thoughts in this crazy brain of mine.. whoah!!
as i was taking a bath.. (w/c is so refreshing) haha i thought of alot of things..
1. how much i miss skool.. and how excited iam to see my friends.. and of course how bad i wanna see mr van...
2. THESIS! THESIS! THESIS! ---> and boy! it was haunting me... the thesis dilemma.. the conflict and the fact that i have to make a decision NOW.. if i will continue what i have started or join a group.. waaah.. the fact that i don't know who will handle COM RES 2 bothers me alot.. coz i have to know... and i have to know it NOW... waaaah... (or i'll have to jump on the lake.. hehe)
3. how bored iam at home.. and i think im getting bigger and bigger by the minute.. YIKES!! this can't be happening.. waaaah.. or i won't be able to fit in the van on the 1st day of class... waaaah!! HELP..
4. how annoyed iam with my summer grade that i feel like sh*t inside... for some it might just be a 'grade' but heck! i just hate it... grrr.. i know i should be thankful i didn't flunk the subject but...but..but... *sigh* ********** anyway, as i was taking a stroll in cyberspace (WTF?!) i saw this link in yahoo.. it says "how to flirt".. i remembered dudie (cyra) for awhile ang i clicked on the link.. ahaha the question (how to flirt) was part of the top 20 most asked question/searched question in yahoo.. ANYWAY, after a lot of clicking and searching i stumbled upon the site.. wikihow... (wiki-WHAT?!) yep! WikiHow.. ( i guess its wikipedia's sib) haha i enjoyed searching the "how to's" in that site.. haha and i "learned" something.. haha now i'll be more observant!! hahaha ********** and there was this striking 'statement' it really caught my attention... bigtime! haha "You can't really make someone like you - but the best way to be noticed is to be true to yourself, feel good about yourself and never do anything you don't want to do to get someone's affection." AMEN!! haha *toodles*
Posted by mia at 7:57:00 PM
Monday, May 29, 2006
unbelievable...
waaah.. the verdict was out.. and it was totally.. totally... UNBELIEVABLE!!! waaaah.. :( i feel a little awful.. sh*t.. i just can't help but think about that stinking 1.50... waaaah
UNBELIEVABLE.. grrrr.. just unbelievable.. well.. im thinking bout what i've done this summer in PR.. hmm.. i missed a quiz... i failed all my quizzes... my attendance was NOT perfect at all.. (i must admit..).. and our PR plan may not be as good at it should have been.. AND I ACCEPT THAT... and i know i have my faults.. BUT!! (there is that but again..) i still feel awful..
my expectations were high.. and it all went down the drain.. haaay.. sobrang kaloka nman kz tong summer na to eh.. ewan ko ba! ang weird!!! grrrr.. i don't know what to say... wow! for the 1st time in my "blog history" IM SPEECHLESS...
miss bodestyne?! speechless.. it must be something... haha anyway, what the hell should i do.. what's done is DONE..
im just to speechless.. i can say anything of sense anymore...
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 6:59:00 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
serious?! NOT..
wahoo... my site is starting to take shape... (i think..) anyway, enough about the site.. haha im all screwed up right now.. i mean, the verdict is out this monday and i don't have the slightest idea on what will happen to me.. ok fine! its not a courtroom drama or anything.. but gosh we're talking about GRADES here... haha ok! for ur sake.. course card distribution will be this monday, May 29.. mai sked is 9:30-10:00 ERH 102... hmp! i hate it.. there will be so many people... chaos my friend! CHAOS!!!
im scared... will i fail in PR and educ broad... waaaah now IM SCARED...
do i/we deserve the verdict we will be getting this monday? i mean, all for the love of God what did just happened this summer... our class was like a madhouse... boy! with all due respect to some people, but (there's that but) i just can't accept the fact that 6 weeks of "studying" came to an end that way... waaaah.. i don't wanna sound mean but its the truth.. well.. that's life...
im pretty disappointed with myself (as always)... but my groupmates did good.. and had a fun time... (i mean it!!) besides!! i had mr van on the side (so what's not to love bout summer?!) hahaha :)
it my last summer in La Salle.. I HOPE... and i guess its the home stretch already... and i have to stretch my brain and my patience.. IM ALMOST THERE... :)
boy! skool starts on june 13 by the way... what will happen this school year.. i dunno.. i feel it will be a memorable and "cool" one.. haha
see yah round!
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 11:57:00 PM
yahoo!!! :)
ahahaha... i can finally have ur comments.... wohooo!!! although the template doesn't work for me.... i hate it! hehe kso hndi q lam pano mglagay ng comment dun sa template na gs2 q... grrr.. i have no idea how to do the text/css chuerva... haaaaay.. well... have to stick with this one... ahahaha
im so bored na!!! my god... i wanna go to skool... grrrr.. :s kso pg nsa skool naman aq gs2 qng mg vacation... hahaha ang weird talga...
anyway, im just too happy that my cbox is working!!! and i have the comments thingy na.. hahaha yahoo!!! :)
*toodles*
Posted by mia at 3:12:00 PM
Friday, May 26, 2006
that sucks!
waaah... i can't find a way to add a comment.. hehe
anyway, im excited that my cbox is working... wohooo!!! :) and im also happy that im finally getting the hang of my template.. hehe although the whole site is still under construction... hahaha
im so into finishing the book.. 100 yrs of solitude... my god! hundred years nga bago ko matapos.. ahahaha... haaay... hope i'll finisna today.. hehe still have 4 chapters and IM DONE... im excited na for veronika decides to die... bez told me i'll be having it by monday... (w/c by the way is course card distribution day...) :O w/c also reminds me that its time to face the verdict... waaaah...
im also watching oprah today... and the show is about how Americans are so into class.. (in society that is...) well.. middle or lower class we are still equal... [right?!] haha so idealistic but its TRUE...
well that kind of mentality [class discrimination] SUCKS... haha love oprah!! she's right she's living the American Dream and she did it from scratch!!! I LOVE OPRAH!!!
Posted by mia at 1:12:00 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
*tadah*
my first post ever in my NEW blog site... and im back here in blogspot... im so much excited with my new blog site... actually, im really planning to transfer na.. kz back in my previous blog site my "blogfans" (ahahaha kapal!!) can't leave a comment all they can do is leave a msg in my chat box... kya aun.. i feel bad kz hndi cla maka-comment.. so all for the love of they blogfans... im leaving (although not yet so sure..) my other site and start constructing this one.. ahaha :O
there are times when i can't wait to see the face of my prince charming YET at the back of my head i know that
it's not yet time to reveal himself coz im still scared of what lies ahead...
knowing that you've made something that made you satisfied is worthy of all the risks put together coz finally
you've done something that gave you achieve self worth..(whatever) haha...
living a life full of hatred is a life not worth living at all...
life is a game, win or lose its how you play that counts...
why can't people just be who THEY REALLY WANT TO BE... *sigh*
love can be the way of your destruction when you don't know how to use it properly...
what is essential is invisible to the eye~Antoine the Saint Exupery
You are not alone yet you're lonely~ Bru Jae
Turn your wounds into wisdom~ Oprah Winfrey
When God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window~ Julie Andrews in the Sound of Music
(1969)
Where there is no struggle, there is no strength.~ Oprah Winfrey
The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate.~ Oprah
Winfrey
"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive.
You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the
world."~ Brad Pitt in the Fight Club (1999)
Time drags when we wait, and flies when we're late.~ Brad Pitt in the Fight Club (1999)
[singing] When you know the notes to sing, you can sing most any thing.~ Julie Andrews in the
Sound of Music (1969)
All great achievements require time.~ Maya Angelou
Look for the beauty in things.~ Maya Angelou
There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you.~ Maya Angelou
You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter
the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.~ Maya
Angelou
Earth provides enough to satisfy every man’s need, but not any man’s greed.~ Mohandas
Gandhi
A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave~ Mohandas
Gandhi
But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart~ Chapter XXV of the Little Prince
What makes the desert beautiful," says the little prince, "is that somewhere it hides a well.~
Chapter XXIV of the Little Prince
"Only children know what they are looking for."~ Chapter XXII of the Little Prince
All you need is already within you, only you must approach your self with reverence and love.
Self-condemnation and self-distrust are grievous errors. Your constant flight from pain and search for pleasure is a
sign of love you bear for your self, all I plead with you is this: make love of your self perfect. Deny yourself
nothing -- glue your self infinity and eternity and discover that you do not need them; you are beyond".~ Sri
Nisargadatta Maharaj
"And remember, my sentimental friend, that a heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much
you are loved by others". Professor Marvel in Wizard of Oz
What if you wait for your special someone your whole life, and later on learn that no one is really
waiting for you? ..but true love is worth taking chances for... sometimes, you don't know why things work out, they
just do...~from a sms taken from the movie lakehouse
"No life is a waste," the Blue Man said. "The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are
alone."~ p. 50 of Mitch Albom's Five people you meet in heaven
